We just passed Madeline's 7 month birthday.  I am so sad.

I feel like everyone around me at work is pregnant or just had a healthy baby.  While I would not wish this tragedy on anyone, I wonder why Madeline had to die.  Was it to teach me a lesson?  Was it a punishment?  Why?  Why?  Why?

Other than people being pregnant at work, work is great!  I work with two wonderful teachers who let me get in there and teach.  I am actually in classes of 25-30 kids which is a change for me because of my background with resource kids.  I love it!

Caleb is still growing like a weed.  I need to get some new pictures of him on here soon. 

Lyle is still in search of the ultimate job.  So frustrating.  He can't even get his foot in the door anywhere. 

Please pray for Baby Joseph's family as he is born tomorrow.  Tomorrow will be his birthday and the end of his life on earth.  I pray for miracles to happen for him.  While God did not answer my prayers for Madeline, I hope he will answer my prayers for Joseph's family.

Gotta go now,

Kim

Another CDH mommy said she was having trouble with her blog.  I wanted to check mine.

Things are still the same.  I am still pissed off at the world.  I am also gearing up to take Caleb to see The Wiggles tomorrow.

 

 

Well, from Tuesday until yesterday I was in a horrible mood.  Tuesday Madeline should have been 6 months old.  I am so pissed that I don't have my daughter with me.  On Thursday it had been 6 months since she died.

I have begun to doubt my faith in God again.  I can't even go to church.  Madeline's funeral was in our church and I am having a real hard time lately even thinking about going.  I know Madeline had a purpose for me and my family on earth and I wish I knew why she had to leave us.  I am angry at my dad who is in heaven enjoying his granddaughter.  I know he did not want my daughter to die but she did.  I want her back so much.  If I could just have one more minute.  I know I would ask for another minute until the day I die.  I could never give her back to God.

I have spent my entire week sorting through pictures of Caleb.  I just had about 400 pictures printed so I can put them away in an album.  That makes me angry too.  Caleb is not even 3 and we have about a 1000 pictures of him.  I only have about 30 of Madeline.

I know I am rambling.  I wanted to tell everyone to pray for the family of Lisa.  I do not know anything about this child other than she died from CDH yesterday.  Please continue to pray for Mert's family and all the CDH families.

 

A very sad mommy,

Kim

It is with a broken heart that I inform everyone that Baby Mert passed away on July 14th.  He was only 3 days old.  Please keep his parents and family in your thoughts and prayers.  There is a link to his website to the right titled Angel Mert if anyone would like to visit and maybe post a comment to his family.

 

Hugs to all the CDH families,

Kim

Today is just a blah day.  Caleb is home with me and we went to McDonald's for lunch.  We always have fun when he stays home from daycare.  He is beginning to get a cold I think.  Poor kid cannot breathe through his nose.

Baby Mert was born this morning.  Please keep him and his family in your prayers as they begin their long journey with CDH.

I have been thinking about Madeline a lot lately.  I think I have seen signs from her.  Rainbows, butterflies, commercials on TV.  I think she is trying to tell me something I just don't know what.

Congrats to Audrey!  She is home and keeping her parents busy.  Jackson is no longer on the vent!  What great news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I guess that is all for now.

 

Prayers to all the CDH families,

Kim