Well, from Tuesday until yesterday I was in a horrible mood.  Tuesday Madeline should have been 6 months old.  I am so pissed that I don't have my daughter with me.  On Thursday it had been 6 months since she died.

I have begun to doubt my faith in God again.  I can't even go to church.  Madeline's funeral was in our church and I am having a real hard time lately even thinking about going.  I know Madeline had a purpose for me and my family on earth and I wish I knew why she had to leave us.  I am angry at my dad who is in heaven enjoying his granddaughter.  I know he did not want my daughter to die but she did.  I want her back so much.  If I could just have one more minute.  I know I would ask for another minute until the day I die.  I could never give her back to God.

I have spent my entire week sorting through pictures of Caleb.  I just had about 400 pictures printed so I can put them away in an album.  That makes me angry too.  Caleb is not even 3 and we have about a 1000 pictures of him.  I only have about 30 of Madeline.

I know I am rambling.  I wanted to tell everyone to pray for the family of Lisa.  I do not know anything about this child other than she died from CDH yesterday.  Please continue to pray for Mert's family and all the CDH families.

 

A very sad mommy,

Kim

It is with a broken heart that I inform everyone that Baby Mert passed away on July 14th.  He was only 3 days old.  Please keep his parents and family in your thoughts and prayers.  There is a link to his website to the right titled Angel Mert if anyone would like to visit and maybe post a comment to his family.

 

Hugs to all the CDH families,

Kim

Today is just a blah day.  Caleb is home with me and we went to McDonald's for lunch.  We always have fun when he stays home from daycare.  He is beginning to get a cold I think.  Poor kid cannot breathe through his nose.

Baby Mert was born this morning.  Please keep him and his family in your prayers as they begin their long journey with CDH.

I have been thinking about Madeline a lot lately.  I think I have seen signs from her.  Rainbows, butterflies, commercials on TV.  I think she is trying to tell me something I just don't know what.

Congrats to Audrey!  She is home and keeping her parents busy.  Jackson is no longer on the vent!  What great news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I guess that is all for now.

 

Prayers to all the CDH families,

Kim